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I am quite certain that I am being tested right now. It is not just a matter of how I deal with difficult situations. It is a matter of how I deal with myself, my self-esteem, my self-confidence. Trust that unhappiness breeds more unhappiness. It can further drag you down and drag others down as well. The greatest thing I’ve done as an adult is recognize this and begin to place it into that box that must be locked away. It does not always work. Life is not stable. That much is certain. But to be able to do it more often than not is a step in the right direction. And to be able to see that terribleness in others and keep moving is the next best thing. 

I felt terrible during the day, but I could come home and collect my thoughts. Writing is what saved me.

"And now?" she asked.

If your day is so terrible that it bleeds into every other moment, you must eradicate that plague. Sometimes it is complete. Sometimes you have to put it away in a thick box. When you finally let go, the throwing away will be more like a sledgehammer to the past.

“Britt Julious is one of Chicago’s most underrated and unrecognized voices — she muses on feminist topics (as well as femininity), issues in the black community, Chicago and the general BS that comes with being a twentysomething”

Isa Genzken, Schauspieler (Actors) (detail), 2013

Anonymous asked: How do you find a topic you want to write an essay about? Is there anything particular which inspires you?

It’s a mix of a couple of things, but usually: what am I most obsessed about right this very second? A lot of my essays are born out of ideas and concepts and people and music and moments that I can’t get out of my head. I’m an obsessive person by nature and I think writing is a way of releasing some of those obsessions. Why did she do that thing in that one scene? What does this album mean as a whole? Why am I so frustrated by her character? But also, most things I choose for essays are things that I can relate to or am directly affected by, even in the most minuscule of ways. 

Stars and screens in my eyes

"Braindead" by Juce

Their first single reminded me of that late-90s, early-aughts Brit girl group pop sound (I realize that is a lot. It is a lot just typing, but if you know that sound, then you now what I mean). But this new track sounds firmly in the early 90s, all club-dance and Deee-lite perfect. Also, that bass does things to me. More of this, please!

(Cloud I FB)

"Easy (Switch Screens)" by Son Lux featuring Lorde

I am back and forth on whether I like Lorde’s music, but I certainly like her here. Her deep voice sounds less like an act and more authentic, as if she’s grown into a sound. Her music is very minimal, but Son Lux’s instrumentation and production add a welcoming cushion that complements more than it distracts. 

Recently Two

Recently One

Me x Chicago x CNN

CNN’s new docu-series, Chicagoland, premieres tomorrow. Last week, they interviewed me for an article in anticipation of the show (I was also filmed for the show last summer, but I don’t know if I made the cut.). I didn’t realize the article would basically be everything I said in the conversation. Dibs, gym shoes, jibaritos, steppin, house music … it’s all there. You can read the full story above. 

L’Apollonide (2011)

"Melba’s Call" by Bok Bok featuring Kelela

Love everything about this, but especially the contrast between the natural and the unnatural, the machinery/synths and the greenery, Kelela’s pure voice and the flourishes and manipulations that warp every other note, turning it into something new. 

"I got this song Burn stuck in my head so I did a remix and Ellie DMed me and she’s into it" by Four Tet

My favorite Four Tet tracks are the ones he randomly dropped, as if he needed to get the music out to the public as quickly as possible in fear that the inspiration would leave him entirely. This Ellie Goulding rework is yet another stellar example of a sound that is strong, yet complex.

"Be Brave, Clench Fists" by Leon Vynehall (radio rip)

This is the sound of the come down, when everything you’ve wanted out of the night has been accomplished and all there is left to do is dream about the next time you can repeat the experience. 

(via musicissounds)