What is that feeling of seeing yourself make bad decisions, and doing them anyway? Of knowing the consequences, and still feeling like this is the right thing for right now? To be young is to see the choices and consequences, and choose what feels right over what is right. I am not someone that normally does that, but the older I get, the more I see myself falling into the pattern. It takes a lot to motivate my actions, but my thoughts are frenetic, and if I must choose between what feels like the right assessment, interpretation, or judgment of people and situations and what I know is right, through and through, I will go with my gut. It is a new year. I am testing the waters.